Now

I must do it now. Now is the perfect time to do it. Now is probably the only chance i’ll ever get. my graduation completed last week. my sister’s marriage is also done. I am free right now. absolutely free. if i stick another month or so i’ll be expected to start finding a job. and i know i can’t do it at the time when i am expected to do some worldly thing. right now i am free. i must do it now. if i miss this opportunity i know i will regret that my whole life. my whole life will be ruined. i can’t live worldly life. i am not made for that. i have absolutely no motivation in doing anything worldly. for this world all i carry is spite. they are ruining me and as revenge i’ll be ruining them. i have nothing in this world for me. it will be simply a waste of time, and life. i know it. and i don’t wanna waste my life. i must go away. i do that now or regret to miss that opportunity my whole rest life.

I wrote 3 pages for my note the night before yesternight. there is so much more to write. i have so much to say to my parents and society. i must complete my note soon so that i can do it any night my mood is compatible with. i must understand the delicacy of time. its not the time to be lazy. its the time of action, its the time i had been waiting for, its THE time.