its all too real, the pain inside my head. the nauseating,sickly voice telling me to do it. It hard to not tune it out without first listening to what it has to say. I feel like…i feel exhaused honestly. tired and sick of trying so hard when ill forever be two steps behind everybody else. Whats the points of putting so much effort when it goes unnoticed?
Is life suppose to be like this? a cycle of working breathing living, eating, sleeping thats it. Thats not something id be willing to make a life out of. I want to be happy and i want to take control of my future but i cant, because the pain haunts me, i beat myself over how fustrated i get with myself for not being able to be better.
this is the only place i can vent my anger and dissapointment in myself. Nobody around me could give a damn about my struggle and i dont blame them but id just wish they take a glance even to notice the slighest things in life.
thanks
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I can relate to how you feel. I’m not gonna try talk you out of doing whatever you feel you want to do, but may i suggest mindful meditation. I find it helps me to relax, and clear my thoughts. It brings me clarity and peace, in a sense. If you are going to live this life, consider mindfulness in your daily habits. It may just make living that little bit easier for you. I wish you well, whatever your future holds.