2 weeks have passed.

i was doing great, my life was going in the right direction just got a new job, i was moving up in the world but of course the universe had to laugh in my face and take away one of the things that mattered the most in my life. 2 weeks ago my best friend and i had a difficult talk. long story short she told me that we couldn’t be friends any more because it would be better for both of us and it would save us a headache in the long run. its funny how when you think your life is great it takes one little text to bring you down and rip your heart out. I’ve been in this situation before its not the first time, but everytime it happens it get harder to get up. i am good at pretending, but once i am alone i cant lie to myself. and when i have to hold the tears back because i have to be tough its just getting harder. i keep praying to god every night to take me away but then i wake up in the morning and i am still here with the same empty feeling.
i think the hardest part is not having anybody to talk to, i have a lot of friends but i dont trust any of them because i am afraid they wont understand.
i was hoping to never be back in this web site but the momeries brought me here.
funny how life likes to test me. i am afraid i am going to fail soon.