i cant handle life alone.
i desperately want to die.
i self-harm to feel better and make the pain of being an outcast and all alone.
i wonder why it is ME that cant have friends….obviously, I MUST BE DEFECTIVE…but how do i locate the defect?
i need the pain to STOP….since i’ve tried everything else, i want SUICIDE to take it (all the pain and sh!!t in my life) away….forever…..a permanent solution to an ongoing problem…i see ZER0 hope in this ever changing into something good and worthwhile.
i thought humans were “mentally wired” to be with other people…then WHY does my higher power allow ME to be destitute of any fiends and completely alone?
i HAVE to be doing something wrong to have no one in my life…..but how do i figure out what it is?
i NEED to die….i need the pain to STOP NOW!!!!!
is there any HELP for ME?
????????
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I’m very lonely too Sad. There are a lot of us out here. Like the Beatles’ song, way back in the 60’s, ‘All the lonely people, where do they all come from?’ They keep coming, in fact I think there is a loneliness epidemic in our materially rich societies, where we retreat behind computer screens and forget how to relate to people. I try to remember that I’m just one of millions who find themselves on the outside looking in enviously at those surrounded by friends and loved ones. There’s little I can say to comfort you except that you are honestly not as alone as you think, and I do feel your pain.
I know exactly how you feel. Humans are social animals. A life devoid of friends, family, love, and purpose is really no life at all, but rather mere existence. My therapist says “well, you never know what wonderful things can be right around the corner.” Perhaps…but not for me. I’ve been doing this for too long to know that my future is just going to be more of the same nothingness. I just wish there was an easy exit.
thanks to both for sharing….helps me to feel not so weird or different. Sad that is has to be like this for some…it still baffles me as to why. People tell me i am nice, but they dont hang around…so obviously i cant be all that “nice”….now can i ?