I hate my life right now and the fact that my mother is always on my back isn’t helping me. ”get a job” ”pick your ass up and go outside” ”you lazy ass” ”what are you afraid of, people??” ”why’d you quit college in the first place for ?? ” ”it isn’t that hard” ”quit the drama”
Well you know what ?? FUCK. YOU. you selfish, ignorant, mean *****. she has been depressed, she should know better than to treat me like that. I am so anxious about turning 18 next month, and her comments aren’t making things easier for me. I KNOW i need a job. I KNOW i need to find an appartment. I KNOW you’ll kick me out as soon as i turn 18. I KNOW i don’t do anything of my days, okay?
Look, i had a job interview, I got dressed (thanks to the cheers of my wonderful friend <3). I was ready to go and all…. and then stress got me again. I am making small improvements, but you don't see that, do you? i am just so tired all the time and i don't have the energy to take in all your hate. not anymore.
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Your mother was depressed as well, certainly that leaves her open to empathy if you approached her and explained your situation and your thoughts and your emotions and justify your actions through them as rightly so. I don’t know your mother, but I think you should sit down and have a talk with her and really try to understand each other, ask why she’s so persistent about you doing X, Y and Z, understand her motives and her emotions and reciprocate that – get on the same page. More often than not conflict arises out of the lack of communication, if you can over come that that is a huge step in resolving the issue, if you are unable to reason with her then she really is a terrible person in that regard and therefore her opinions don’t matter when they are abusive, just ignore her harassment although I know it’s hard. Her opinion of you is not a reflection of you but rather a reflection of herself and how she reacts to your behavior and actions, how she reacts is entirely her fault, if she can’t see that there is a valid reason to your actions that is her fault and you have nothing to blame yourself for. 🙂
Thank you for responding in such a loving and kind way 🙂 I don’t think my mom cares really, we are 3 in a really tiny appartment and all that’s on her mind is the landlord telling her I have to go. I just started crying before her and she kept talking about how ”I’m only on the computer” and such and such…. but even if I told her that I am on websites like this and on other psychology websites trying to get help by myself, she won’t be understanding. :c for her, if I don’t go and get a shrink and get things done ASAP, I’m not doing anything to get better. I will try to communicate with her again, but if cries for help don’t shake her, I don’t know what will and I might as well try to get some help somewhere else. 🙂