I just want the hurting to stop.

Someone who I loved an.d cared about very deeply promised me we would be together and start a family. He wanted me to prove I was serious about him by having my IUD removed. After going back and forth on the decision,I finally decided this was the commitment I wanted to make and I was ready. so after I had it removed he started acting uninterested in me. He said he was going through a lot and needed his space. I never could get in touch with him after that other than some hurriedn conversations . I even asked him flat out if he was with someone else and he said no. I finally looked on his facebook page ans saw where it said he was with another girl. I have been crushed. This pain is just too.much and I just want it to stop. Why could he.not have just told me the truth,it would not be near as hard. to deal with. I just want it to be over. I want to die so this pain and embarrassment will go away. some people try to help but they can’t. No ine can help me and I can’t imagine smiling ever again. I wish someone could help.me because I can t make it through another night of torment. this weight on my chest and this cloud over my head