I’m Sorry

You know what I did and you know what I saw. I know your going to leave me high and dry, I saw you telling her. Everyone’s telling you to leave me I know. I’m tired of the name calling, crying ,memories and the attempted exertion of power and control we have with each other. You win!  And you are correct, I am nothing and have nothing. I am sorry my loved one, but I cleaned the house for you and did your washing so it won’t be too hard for you.  Sorry mum and dad I didn’t want to leave you with this after all you have done for me. Sorry dale, don’t follow in your sisters footsteps!  Life is hard and I am weak of mind. Cycles and cycles of mania and depression cloud my thinking and dictate my actions , perhaps this is why I am such a disappointment ? Maybe not to you but to myself. I knew this was coming. Life is hard and i am weak, I pray The Lord my soul to keep.