Not Yet

I have not yet accepted my defeat. I shall complete myself, whatever it takes. in my this journey yet i have explored many forbidden zones. the deeper i go the more forbidden zones lose their holiness/untouchability. and a mere touch of me crumbles their whole fortress that they created in thousands or millions of years. And now i shall move one more step. Once social connectedness preserved the species and it was called the highest good. But what is species preservation to me? My suffering has paid all my debts and i owe nothing to nobody. Tell me, what makes another person more worthy to you than a stone or a robot? The answer is Respect. Belief in equality is in your genes. Man being a social animal is the reason of that. But i shall kill this god in others. I am not a slave to my genes. Others shall no longer be forbidden zones to me. I shall walk through them and i shall go beyond them. I am going to be complete. This barrier was a great one. I always believed in equality and i always respected others and i never questioned it for once. But what are others to me? This might be the beginning of my Godlessness. I always saw god in others because i always saw god in myself. but now what is god to me? only an imaginary thing. it was never anything more. Let what’s falling fall.

What will happen if i conquer others? Cause and effect is not the only law. dependence makes you a slave but only on one level. you can be dependent on something and still be above it. this will manifest itself when i conquer others and still be materially dependent on them. My dependence on them will be nothing more than like my dependence on limitation of space and laws of friction when i light a matchstick. i am dependent on matchstick but i am not under it. it follows until death. you do not feel under the rock that is coming down to crush you or water in which you are drowning. you do not blame water for making you drown. thus you do not feel under or blame others if they happen to kill you. that’s because your god has died. what is the value of life without god, even if its your own life. and others cannot be blamed either because god is life and lifeless things are blameless (remember we killed god in others too).

Behind all this lies my will to complete myself. There is no other truth than the truth we see. But what do we see? have you ever seen anything completely? Man is a craving soul. we are always arriving, always seeking. we taste no fulfillment. Completion is fulfillment, completion is truth. I shall see and i shall see completely.

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