Dear Feelings,
What the fuck.
Now is probably the WORST time for you to develop a crush.
Now is probably the WORST time to start feeling again.
I can’t believe you.You dirty piece of shit.Just as you were getting used to not having her around,
You pull this stunt.At 6:30 in the morning.
Maybe if I weren’t gay,this wouldn’t have happened.Maybe if I were asexual,none of this would happen.
Maybe if I were straight even,none of this would happen.
But nope.
I’m gay.
And my feelings seem to use that against me.
So there it is
The thing i’ve been trying to hold back for so long.
And I just hope she never finds this
There it is
I have a crush
On my best friend
So I could either cry myself to sleep for a few weeks,and just live with a cold heart for a few years
Or I could have a cold heart for a few weeks,then cry myself to sleep for a few years
Or I could be happy for awhile
And let it
all
crumble
down.
1 comment
It’s not wrong to have a crush on someone and it’s not something that you can help or just filter out. When that person you care about gets into your head, it can take a long time for him/her to get out even if nothing happens. It’s just not something you can control.
But all people should live to care, admire and love others to some extent. Personally I’d just try and enjoy it while it lasts, because you’re not going to feel that way about every person you meet. And anyways, there are worse notions out there and I’d rather have you go through this than those.
You’ll learn to cope with this as you grow older.. and if you don’t let it, you’ll always have a child’s heart – delicate and pure, but fragile and frail.
I believe you’ll find that special someone, someday when you find the right person and the time is right. And I think you’ll know when it happens. Just hold on until then and be glad you can feel at all.