Believe it or not but i am only 13. I might as well begin with I have attempted suicide numerous amount of times; Cutting, Hanging an this might sound ridiculous but putting a knife in a toaster. Every time it ended up with me getting hurt and my mother covering it up as she thought if anyone knew i would be taken away from her. My Mother is mentally ill might i add (bipolar and depression). I myself have depression and it brings me down like a ton of bricks (correct me if i am using that phrase wrong) it brings me down to states of self harm and no self esteem. This is only short but its good to get this off my chest, thank you for reading.
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Hi Tuckers,
I believe you used the phrase “like a ton of bricks” correctly.
I am sorry you are in this situation. I was also quite depressed when I was 13, but for my own reasons.
When you say that you are brought to a state of self harm, what do you mean by that? I understand the self harm part, but is there something in your life that really is forcing you to do that? You also mention no self esteem.
I truly believe that for a lot of folks, their issues are not really in front of them and outside of them, but inside of them. I mean, it is a mental issue. Not a mental disease or a mental disorder, but, just like some people see themselves as overweight and they make themselves throw up, even though in reality they are skinny as can be, there are also others who will look at themselves and think they are pathetic and worthless, whereas in reality they are just fine and just looking at things wrong.
Now I am not meaning to assume for you that that is the case for you. I just would encourage you to be strong, and to not let your feelings, the depression, tell you what to do, or make you do anything. The world needs strong people. Weak people need strong people to help them. So I would encourage you to try to be a strong person not just for yourself but so that you can also strengthen others.
That sort of thing will be more fulfilling than living for your own desires.
Please share your thoughts.
I cannot express how happy that makes me. thank you so so much. extremely appreciated. 🙂