After so many years, probably 8, I really can’t believe things will get better. The joy I used to have is gone. I just get through my days. I can’t picture how it will ever get better. And it’s not for lack of trying. I try so hard. I keep trying new ways to feel better. Everyone thinks I’ve got it all together. But every day, I think about how much easier it would be to not keep trying. I can’t imagine I could do this life for 40 more years. And I’m well aware that a lot of people have it worse off than me. Just goes to show how much I suck at life…to not appreciate what I have. But the fact of the matter is, I don’t know HOW to live.
That said, I can’t imagine actually taking my life. Pffft. I can’t live. Can’t die. Hopeless.
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Your not hopeless there are plenty of people who go through a lot of pain I’m also speaking about myself I hope u get better n life will help u n people will be there for u I can be here for u too I’m in constant pain everyday I don’t know when it will stop but I’m.always supporting other people n my closes friend brink of dawn she really helps me I’m.just saying you don’t have to feel so alone anymore I have tried taking my life in Many ways but have yet to succeed I hope I won’t have to u just need to believe you can beat it n have a lot of supporting friends on your side