I could break them

So g-ma was batshit crazy mommy is batshit crazy  now turns out the star child is batshit crazy too but I’m too smart to try and die like mommy and too many people know my name for me to disappear like mommy wanted me to. I got left twice before daddy stepped in and at least I have a room to be left in. Lucky for me another she came along and we ended up going to the same schools. I used to cut a lot and it felt so good but she hates it so I got on my knees and promised her I would stop  just like I stopped eating pills like candy and all the other shit. But I couldn’t I needed to cut I sat crying and shaking trying not to but I couldn’t stop myself so I cut again and just like before I loved it but she found out and she hated it she had been mine. I protected her stayed with her loved her and I still do.  I threw my knife into a river and started to get happy again but she knew I could be and have been broken.  Then he came along he can take care of her so much better than I can I know this. So I have a few options do nothing and see what happens, beat the living piss out of him, or have a little fun and see if I can catch a bullet with my eyelid. Anybody wanna talk might be fun?