hi whoever you are first go over my story i am a girl from my Pakistan and recently done my o levels . you know what i have every thing for like iPhone closet filled with clothes and whatever you think high class pocket money but you know body could understand me you know just a minute ago my dad beat me harshly cos i was fighting with my brother how in the world a dad could beat his 17 year old daughter . i am just tolerating oh yeah i had a fight with my mom and i screamed in front of her this morning cos she was shouting at the top of her lungs to wake me up and i heard all the conversation , when she was talking to my dad that i am spoiled child i wish could die i never had friends still no best friend i was shy weak child at my school i have suffered bullies at school and from relatives i did not told anyone in these 17 years i had only one close friend my diary!!!!!!!!!!! i lack socializing that dose not mean i am nothing my mom says she love but she dose not she is a big fat liar you know what i actually hate world , people and even myself cos i can do nothing i am just shit living in this world. and you know what i can not even suicide cos i am Muslim and Muslim believes if they suicide they are straight away going to hell god is just so unfair it seems like i am just struck if i live here i have to suffer this fucking life and if kill myself i am going to hell life is just………………………………… okay now i am planning to leave this house i actually tried like thousands of time but my mom (i think so she is not my mum) saw me and she beat me life is hell i wish i could never exist you know what my younger brother who is 16 daily beat me cos i use his freaking laptop a daughter is always a daughter she can not be a son she can not support you like a son she is going to study and get married ( not love marriage cos i live in Pakistan) she dose not know what future hold for her but a son does cos his dad had named all property have a personal car and night out with his friend if he lost 3 cell phones not a problem at all and if there is a crash on daughters phone then she is a stupid anyway i have no choice i have to suffer all this .
p.s ignore grammatical mistakes.