Tonight is awful. I’m close to tears, I feel very alone and unwanted. For the first time in months, I’ve actually considered hurting myself. I know that won’t help, but it’s so tempting. Since losing my therapist and many friends 3 weeks ago, I fell back hard into my already bad depression, making things worse.
I have no clue what to do anymore. I question myself. Am I good? Does my past make me bad? Am I loveable? School gets under my skin. Also, my impending birthday is looming over me like a giant, and my past is a scary dark forest around me.
I’m just lost. I feel like a terrified little girl. My life is passing me by, and though I participate in it, I don’t see the point of living through each day that brings more hurt..
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Just know that in the moment its easier to make an irrational choice than it is to wait. If you need someone, I’m here.
What’s happened in your past to make you feel this way?