It wasn’t until today ’til I realized the full truth of my procrastination and weakness. Another birthday, a year too long I’ve lived. Another birthday, a year I could have rid of myself. And now what, what can I do but be sad on this day.
I dont have have much extended family, but what I do have of them I talk to about once a year. My cousin was a firefighter in Denver for a while. He was in college doing a volunteer program. On a day stroll he spotted a man laying on a park bench, pour gasoline over himself, then lit himself on fire. Later the investigators had found out it was his birthday, and in his home, had the man planned it out.
Now me, I wouldn’t make such a scene and have to make the public eye have to witness such a thing, but the idea of a birthday suicide somehow sounds . . . alluring.
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Happy birthday, R. (I’d sent an email but was not sure on the time zone and didn’t want to send my wishes a day early/late).
Grab some Pop Tarts and wash ’em down with a chilled beverage of your choosing and…“kick back, relax, catch your contacts and sip your cognacs”.
happy birthday..
Happy Birthday!
Dear StruggleOn,
It is not weakness to procrastinate. Somewhere, deep inside of you, in a place you try to convince yourself there is a seed of life that wants to grow strong. I know you have real challenges that stand like a towering reinforced concrete wall in your path. I know there is a way under, over or even around this obstacle. I will not tell you it will be short or easy. I will attest that there is a way. When you are ready to embark on this rewarding journey let me know. I will stand side by side with you when you are strong and I will carry you when you are tired. May this be the year that you start to find belonging and reason in life. Happy 16th Young Lady.
AMEN!