A Mean Practical Joke

Four guys sit around me in 1st period Geometry. One of them is a really good friend of mine. We were just joking around and I just asked, “Are you gay?” as a joke, cause he’s one of the straightest people I know. He’s always pulling practical jokes on me, so I never know when he’s lying or not. He said, “Yeah I am! You didn’t know that!” I have a crush on him, so obviously my reaction wasn’t the best, so he made fun of me by asking the guys around us. They all agreed with him and bashed on me for not knowing. The guy started making fun of me saying I was homophopic and I’m not!!! He started fake crying just as the bell rang (I did not know he was fak crying at the time, so I tried to apologize, but I had to go to class, so I left him) and all his friends consoled him. Now I know that they were just making fun of me for believing it.

I walked to second period with thoughts swirling around my mind. I was really disapointed that my crush was gay, but I decided I couldn’t do anything about, but I was still very distraught about for all of second period. Soon, snack time came, and as I headed to my locker, one of my crush’s friends came up to me and said, “I can’t believe you didn’t know that! [Blank] hates you now! I can’t believe your a homophopic! God, your’re such a ***** you made him cry.” I was super sad after that cause I genuinely did not think he was gay but it’s not like I had a problem with it, it’s just that I didn’t want my crush to hateme!

Then, my four best friends came up to me and like bashed me for not knowing he was gay. But I didn’t understand, because I told one of them just yesterday how much I liked him, and she(Bff 1) didn’t say anything about him being gay. I couldn’t take it anymore, so I just walked away, but one of my friends (Bff 2) followed me asked if I was okay. I was choking up and acting really sad, and she comforted me. Afterward, I walked up with Bff 1 to P.E. and we told the story to another friend of mine (friend 1). One of the guys was in the same P.E. class as me (he happened to be best friends with friend 1) and I really did not want to go to class and see him, but Friend 1 assured me that he would be nice.

He said, “You know, I know you thought this was a joke, but this was the one thing he was serious about. Why do you think when me and the guys talk about girls, he doesn’t talk as much?”

Me: “I know, I really am sorry though. I didn’t want to offend him in anyway. I was just surprised that he was so open about it.”

Him: “It’s okay. We all understand, etc. (explained how he’s gay) blah blah blah.

I was relieved that the interaction was over, but I realized I had 4th period next where my crush was there, his other best friend was there, and one of the guys who sat next to me in geometry was there. I was walking down to my classroom Bff 1 and I was saying maybe I should just tell the gay person that I have a crush on him, so people will stop calling me homophobic. She started freaking out and said I shouldn’t tell him and made me promise that I wouldn’t tell him I liked him. I realized one of my crush’s friends was behind me and I freaked out thinking he heard me say who I liked. He didn’t hear but forced it out of me, and was very nice about it. We started to talk and joke around, but as soon as I walked into the classroom, one of the guys from Geometry came to me and stupidly said, “[Blank’s] gay!” I yelled, “I KNOW!” at him getting really angry. Five minutes later he came up again and repeated the statement. I angrily cursed at him, and he said “Woah, you know it’s a joke right?” I was in shock and didn’t think and next thing I know the guy is pushed down on the floor and I am outside the classroom (this is my elective, journalism, so everyone is involved with their work) crying. Two girls came outside and gave me a pass so I could walk around and cool off and consoled me saying their all jackasses. I walked around and was so angry at everyone for lying to me even when I was half-crying.

In the corner, of my eye I saw Bff 2 looking for me, and I ran and hid before she could see me. Soon lunch came, and I really didn’t want to talk to anyone, but somehow my best friends found me and tried to apologize, but I didn’t want to hear it. I just said I wanted to be alone, but they were really persistant, but only one of them understood and dragged the others away. My crush found me and apologized and so did his friend that called me a *****. I slapped them both and said it was ok, cause i hate being in the center of attention and just wanted it to blow over. Everybody apologized, but I don’t think anyone understood how much I went throught that day. Maybe I was being a drama queen, but I hate that I forgave them so quickly.

At the end of the day my ultimate Bff heard about everything that happened and yelled at my crush and asked why I forgave and blah, blah, blah, and that made me feel much better, but I was still really drained and sad.

The next day, I dreaded going to school. But I put my chin up and went on throughout the day. At lunch however, my crush asked out my best friend (the one that knew about my crush on him), and she said yes, but afterward she asked if it was ok, and I said yes because I wanted to be a supportive friend, but in my head I was thinking, “What if I went out with your crush?” She didn’t even like him, yet she went out with him. These two days have just been crazy and depressing.

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xoxo,

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