This is my first post… I’m not really sure what to say or how to begin…I’m not seeking attention or guidance per say, I only feel the need to vent.
All I know is that I cannot remember the last time I truly felt happy and content in my life. I suppose I won’t go into much detail, but I guess it started when my mom went to jail for the first time a few years back.
I struggled with my life over the next few years, and I still do. But lately I’ve just felt it hard. I don’t want to continue on with my life. I see no true purpose in life other than it being a test to enter heaven, which I’m honestly not sure I care about anymore.
I just want to end my life and I don’t really see the purpose anymore.
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Life can be hard and pointless.. But if its all about a test to enter heaven for you, then by committing suicide you will be going there anyway. Logically therefore, you are already condemning yourself to hell anyway, which means you might as well have fun and do some sinning before you get there to get your moneys worth. Gamble, cheat, have sex, have fun and indulge yourself before you cross over to the other side. You never know, you might enjoy yourself so much you’ll feel differently about things..
Will not be going there i meant to say.. whoops..
I can’t relate with your mom going to jail. Everything else is like reading my mind word for word. I definitely know how you feel. And honestly if I could bear your burdens and remove them from you, I would. Because it’s not something I wish on anyone. I do hope things turn around for you.
Social distortion- don’t take me for granted
First time? It was a repeated need? Ouch… Sorry.
What did you feel hard? Was it all the mom thing exclusively?
I get that you don’t see the sense. Just thought you might be willing to share a bit more.
DW
Sorry I didn’t quite feel like going into much detail in this… But I made a new post all about it.
Hmmm have you thought bout marriage?