I am so beyond lowest of low points that I have given up on everything. I couldnt be bothered showering, brushing my teeth, washing clothes even eating. I don’t sleep one day just so I can sleep through the next. I am in immense pain from my back and my rotting teeth.
I once cared so much about my health and my appearance. Where did it go wrong?
Finally my doctor is listening to me & trying to help. Why now after nearly a year of seeing him, telling him my troubles, what I want to do, does he now want to do something?
I made my very first new years resolution this year. If 2014 is not better than 2013 or if it does not give me something to live for, I am not sticking around for another year of hell.
I will take that scary plunge into the darkness. It is scary committing suicide because nobody knows whats on the other side. Noone has cone back & told us what its like. My sister died & was revived last month. All she could remember was that everything went black.
It is unknown whats there & that is scary, not knowing where we’re going.