I need to get Ryan out of there. we have little contact, because his phone broke. he is the one I love most in this world. I wake up crying every single day and I feel like he feels trapped. I pray for him multiple times a day even after saying God doesn’t exist. I try to contact Ryan from his dad’s phone, only to have his dad tell me to never call or text his phone again. my parents don’t care about my problems, I pushed all my friends away, I have nobody that really wants to be around me anymore because I’m so depressed… I want the love of my life back…. his dad used to beat his mom. I don’t know if maybe that is what is happening I just don’t know but he’s not well
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Maybe you will never get him back, so accepting this loss and moving on might be the best bet. It’s like when I lost my father, at the time it was the end of the world, but then I moved on despite my grief and lingering feelings. Your problem is very temporary and despite your pain, you have plenty of time to find love and companionship again, you have your whole life yet to live.
that isn’t the point. my gut feeling is telling me he is in danger. the environment he is in is not right. even if I wanted to ‘move on’, I can’t. I’ve never loved someone so deeply and I will not give up
Maybe give him some time, doing what you are doing is counter productive and is just pushing him away further. You may very well be correct in your feelings with him being in an unsafe environment, but at the moment there is nothing you can do to change the situation. When you try to forcibly involve yourself in someone’s life it often has the reverse outcome that you want.
I am not contacting him, he doesn’t have a phone and I deleted his dad’s number. I’m thinking of contacting authorities. he isn’t safe there
You should try to contact him again somehow but you can’t force him to move and it’s true what DC001 said, the more you try the more you’ll push him away from you. Have you told him you’re suicidal, if you have, I think you have to convince him this is not the case, even if it is; he’s not going to come back to you if he thinks that he can never leave again if it doesn’t work because you’ll kill yourself, he’ll feel trapped. You need him to know that if he comes back and tries to make the relationship work then, if it fails, he can leave without the worry you’ll kill yourself and have it on his conscience. I could never be in a relationship, however I felt about the woman, if I felt I could never leave without such consequencies, I’d feel too much pressure. Should he return to you then you have the chance to show him you don’t rely on him to function, don’t be clingy to him, give him space in the relationship and be independent yourself.
If he doesn’t come back then I’m truly sorry for you but hope you decide not to take the overdose.
I hope things will soon go your way n he will be out of there maybe what your saying is true if his father did beat his mom who’s to say he is doing that to his son maybe give the authorities a call maybe that’s for the best I can be your friend I have anxiety n depressed I also have spinal scoliosis it makes my back hurt like crazy I can’t take this pain I’m.having it sucks but I do hope you are right n if you want to email me it’s lopezrickyjoe@yahoo.com
I emailed you
I can not contact him. no way . I was feeling really bad yesterday and texted his dad’s phone even though Ryan told me not to call I felt impulsive. his dad texted back never text or call my number again. so I’m pretty sure Ryan is afraid of his dad, feels trapped, but is trying to pretend things are okay but I know they’re not. I have a gut feeling. more on that later. what I did was email his local sheriff office asking what they could do. didn’t give names or address or anything.I’m afraid he might get mad at me… probably is because i stupidly texted his dad.deleted his number and my history tho so i won’t do that again
If your gut tells you Ryan is in danger then you may want to consider contacting the authorities wherever he is and asking them to look into the situation. This can be a tough thing to do because they will ask for seemingly infinite amounts of information and explanation, and the may refuse to do anything unless you agree to have your identity disclosed if anyone involved asks who initiated the contact. Otherwise it seems like there isn’t anything tangible you can do at least for the time being. Things may just need some time to cool off, and that may give him the opportunity to contact you. I sincerely wish there were easier answers but it is a difficult situation, and not very different from the one I described to you that I have been facing for a long time.
Keep hoping, and regardless of what your beliefs are you can and should continue to pray.
– peace
oh I do pray multiple times a day for them. I emailed them to see what they can do. well I emailed a different county and asked if they could forward it because the other one kept saying error. I just gave his first name no address basically just asking what they could do. I might tell them I’d like to wait a few weeks. can’t go there in person. maybe I could go to my county sheriff and they could forward. I have bad anxiety I can’t call people but I’m fine if they call me