when my stuff i ordered online gets here, I’m done. my mom is making fun of the way i am feeling, calling my dad and my aunt telling them I can’t clean my apartment, I’m sorry I’m depressed and my mom is making fun of me for it
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Well I hope it all works out for you and you get what your after.
I want either my Ryan or death. I have no one in real life I can’t believe my mom would make fun of me like that
I wish I could talk to your mum, does she realise how you’re really feeling, she must think that it’s just a phase you’re going through and you’ll get over it. Most times that is the case but not all, and it’s those tiny number of times that a parent will realise the how deep the pain is that their child is going through but by then it’s too late.
I’m sorry about what you’re going through, I care about you but I realise I can’t help you, that must come from within you if it can at all, please keep posting lovemyshihtzu.
she’s found me unconscious from attempts before. I guess she thinks because I’m still alive I just want attention or something. why won’t hanging work? all it does is give me a headache. all these thoughts in my head and me being all alone without my Ryan and no f family no friends it’s killing me slowly i just want my love back
Can’t you wait to see what happens about the letter, or drive down there if you must, you should try to exhaust all chances before commiting the ultimate step. You know my opinions on that but I just can’t convince you not to kill yourself and I’ve tried my hardest, you can e-mail me again if you need to but you know I want you to continue fighting this desire to die. I don’t know what to say about your mother, it must be, as you say, she thinks you want attention but if, after seeing you unconscious, I were her I’d seek help in hospital for you. Please remember we care about you.
I’ve been to the stupid hospital idk how many times since I was fifteen. just makes everything worse and you have to pretend to be happy so they let you out. should’ve gotten my letter today idk. I actually texted his dad’s phone asking if he could have Ryan call me asap. but of course I got nothing. I can’t just drive four and a half hours show up at his dad’s house unexpected
It’s sad to see you self destruct like this, I know time is a great healer but you can’t see it, other people have gone through bad break-ups but you just can’t seem to get over it, it’s all just too much for you. I honestly believe you can move on given time, trying to occupy your mind on other things would help, if only you’d try. Whatever I say, I can’t seem to change your mind about your future and I’m truly sorry about that.
I have tried and I just can’t. he’s the only person who ever made me feel like I was worth anything
Have you spoken to your mother and let her know how you feel? It’s not right to make fun of someone and I know it’s painful and depressing on your part but it’s not worth ending your life. Could you talk to me? Maybe I can help I’m sorry you feel this way but over time it will all get better. Everyone hits walls in their life where they feel their life is over but it doesn’t have to be let me try to help.
she doesn’t care. my whole Life has been like this besides the time I was with Ryan. I hate being stuck in this stupid apartment all alone and all of my attempts failing. I fail at life and I fail at death. and I know nothing will make me better besides Ryan. I’m not good for anything I hate myself
I’m sorry who is Ryan? Everyone has felt this way before, I have myself all my Family went against me and I became a teen mom and lost all my friends. But it’s not over you can make it better. She may pretend not to care trying to hide her feelings but she does. Maybe you can get a roommate a good friend to live with and know you have someone there for you?
I don’t have friends….I had Ryan the love of my life but then I went crazy and he left….:(
I know what you mean I have no friends either. I just can’t trust anybody and I can’t go to family about my feelings because they just look at me crazy. I’ve driven someone I loved very much away and now I just have to live with that I had it good but my insecurities pushed him away. I know the feeling and it hurts it hurts real bad but just because it all seems horrible right now doesn’t mean it’s over. You never know it may get better. Maybe not exactly how you want but over time you will see and understand it’s just life and it sucks but everything that happened has a reason. Please don’t take your life because of it tho!
I love him more than I’ve ever loved anyone and since he’s been gone he’s been mentally unstable I just want MY Ryan back it’s not fair:( I’m not worth anything. it was like this before I met him but now it is way worse:(
Is their a way to get him back? Your worth more than you know but your pain and anger is hiding all the good you have In you and about you. Look past the hurt and you will see the light.
I tried texting his dad to have him call me and his dad told me don’t ever call or text his phone again. I’m fucking worthless I quit
One day you will find a man who will show you your worth better than Ryan. He will not leave he will always be there for you. He will treat you like no other man has ever and then you will look back at the way your feeling now and think of how silly it was. Everyone has had someone important walk out of their life before. But someone even better will come in maybe not right away but don’t give up. If Ryan can’t see What a great girl you are than he isn’t worth your tears and heart ache. Just be strong.
I don’t want anyone else. I feel like his dad has control over him. I fucking hate his dad he took away the one thing that ever made me happy and feel like I was worth something. I’d rather die. I’ve wanted to die since I was three even in other relationships. when I was with Ryan I didn’t want to die. I wanted to live with him forever
I wish I could just fucking die tonight. I hate his dad so much he took the greatest thing in my life from me and Ryan is probably scared of him. my parents don’t talk to me, I wanna take some caffeine pills plus energy drink but I’m afraid my dad might stop by after work even though he hates me too. the suspension strangulation isn’t working. I didn’t ask to be put on this earth why should I be forced to stay here
You shouldn’t want to live for someone but with someone. If his dad is the reason that he can’t talk to you and the relationship ended just be patient because if the love is strong and true he will find away to get to you. Parents can be controlling but their only doing what they feel is best for their children even if it’s not really the best thing. Try Apologizing to his father even if you feel you didn’t do anything wrong towards him just send him a sincere apology and explain the hurt you feel ask for another chance. Maybe he will have an open heart.
I deleted his dad’s number. he just fucking met his dad. his dad seemed fine with me when I was there to visit in July. maybe once I’m dead he’ll get the hint
his dad is nothing but a sperm donor. Ryan and his siblings were taken away as children because of neglect! now he’s trying to be some superdad or whatever give me a break
I know I’m a stranger but u really do care… I wish I could be there to be a shoulder you can lean on I really do know how you feel and it breaks my heart knowing your in s Ok much pain.
I hate his dad I hope he gets fucking shot and I hope someone sues him when I die. all I did was text him asking for Ryan to call me. I’m going fucking bat shit crazy right now none of these methods are working I just want to be gone forever. fuck my shitty piece of shit life. fuck god either be isn’t real or he doesn’t give two shits about me. he gave me something great then just ripped it away. I fucked it up he was supposed to come back that night and I FUCKING FUCKED IT UP now he’s got Ryan down there getting drunk every night trying to hook him up with other girls FUCK HIM. I’ve never hated someone so much in my life
Just try that’s all just try. God is real he is very real and so is Heaven and He’ll . God loves you and he’s watching over you right now and maybe Ryan isn’t coming back because God knows he’s weak minded and isn’t the best you could get. You feel he is because you haven’t had better but if he goes with his father and let’s his father get him drunk and talk to girls than he isn’t worth it. It’s his choice.
he’s not talking to girls, his dad tries to get him to. Ryan told me. fuck his dad. fuck ‘God’ if he didn’t want me to be with Ryan he should’ve never let me meet him. I’ve been with so many guys it’s fucking ridiculous. I didn’t ask to be put on this earth. I’m texting my parents all crazy and they just fucking ignore me
when he was here it was the best thing ever he treated me like a queen but I took advantage of him and treated him like shit. I hate myself
Don’t say that about God or yourself it’s just not right. Ryan doesn’t have his own phone or a Facebook or anything?
I deactivated my Facebook it hurt to much and he can’t get on his because no phone he said he got locked out of it and now there’s a bullet hole in it. that’s proof he doesn’t need to be there. that was last week when he called…didn’t want to be there..said he missed me, loved me… since he’s been there he’s a different person every time i talk to him
my dad just sent me a really mean text. I told him that he and my mom were belittling my problems and it hurt. he replied.
(1/4) I’m tired of listening to the same crap about the same person again and again. You have worn me down. You don’t want help. I can’t take this constant rant
(2/4) ing. You are a complete mental mess right now. You don’t know how to talk or listen to your parents. You either hang up or get up and leave. Get in the
(3/4) r, go see him. Quit your job. Whatever. You will never be happy. My stomach is in knots so leave me be tonight. I have way too much stress in my life. You
(4/4) must want me to have a heart attack.
How old is he? Can he drive to you? Or can you go pick him up? Why can’t he call the police so he can leave that house peacefully
Ryan? he’s 21. he has a truck that’s the reason he went down there and then i messed it up. he said the other day about something messed up with it but I forget what
he hates cops idk. idk what to do anymore I’m at my breaking point:(
Oh wow I’m sorry, as I parent I feel that no matter how negative they feel about their child they should still put on a smile and only give the positive words and advice.
I agree:(, my mom is ignoring me. though she did say earlier to stop contacting her
Do you think he’s making excuses or things are really just getting worse?
the cops things he told me when he was still here
You can’t go pick him up?
if he gave me permission I’d drive there in a heart beat
Well keep me updated please I don’t you to end your life because times seem hard. If you’d like I could give you my Facebook or email if you’d like to add me. Just please stay strong things will all come together and remember, I Care <3
I deactivated my fb but my email is tawneesmommy@gmail.com
Ok well if you ever reactivate it or get a new one my name on facebook is Davontae’Cassandra Bell and you’ll see pictures of little cute kids and you’ll know it’s mine 🙂 and my email is Cassandradavontae@yahoo.com