I simply don’t know how to feel about this anymore… I’ve been planning this for nearly a month now… And now that my time has come, I don’t know if I”m ready… no one from my family would miss me, none of them even care about me. If anything, they hate everything about me, from the sound of my voice to the fact that I exist. I’ve already tried countless times before, why is it that this time seems so much more difficult… I don’t know whats wrong with me anymore… it doesn’t matter though, because, this time I’ve planned the whole thing out, and even have the tools to execute my plan, instead of just grabbing the first thing I think I can use… This time, it has to work… I have to erase myself from existence, I am and have always been nothing more than a mistake!
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Only you can hold your fate.
Choose wisely. You may not get another chance.
a chance? I was never given a chance when my parents would rent me to mental hospitals during my childhood and teen years, no one cared… and I never had a choice.
Opting out, is my ONLY means of escaping all the pain I’ve experienced throughout my life. 🙁 there is no other way…
Hey there 🙂 Uh…I don’t really know why I’m telling you this but…*sigh*…I tried to kill myself the day before the last day of school of my sophomore year (I’m a junior now)…I understand how you feel about it being harder…hell it was hard to even get 13 pills down (btw overdose is painful. do not attempt). I really wish most times that it had worked. But when It didn’t…I decided to try and take control of my life…I suck up to my rents…bu they aren’t my real family. My real family is my friends and my music. If I’d died, I wouldn’t have found them and I wouldn’t have done or accomplished all the things that I did for ME. not for my rents. Fuck them. You sound like you’re still in highschool, so I’m telling ya this. Just a couple of more years. Then you’re free. I promise.
I graduated already, about 3 years ago actually.
I have no reason for existence, no friends nor family that really care about me.
There is no place in this world for some ‘thing’ like me either…
as for the family ordeals, I do not believe the same as you, there is the family that you’re born into and that’s it, unless you were adopted or have a step parent(s) or something like that.
as for ‘suicide’ I’ve already tried about 30 times… sadly enough. Burning, hanging, drowning, cutting, beating myself against things(walls, doors, books, fists, etc.) the list goes on… and other people have tried to kill me as well but, no one cares about any of that.
I am NOT free of anything, not until I’m gone forever!
besides, had I never come into existence, my parents would still be together, my mom and sister would be happier, everything would’ve been so much better for everyone had I never come into existence! That’s why all I am is a mistake that’s been LONG overdue for erasing.
Ah yes. Then you’ll be free to really stress. Getting a job, paying bills,saving up for retirment because you will get old and feeble if disease doesn’t kill you before. Life does not get easier, the high school BS just goes away.
I already know all of this… 🙁
it’s why I haven’t been able to move out yet… even when I’ve tried to get the money together to move out… 🙁
The only means of escape that I have is to opt out of existence… No one will miss me, No one will care!