Right now, as I write this, I am in my room. Alone.
It is dark around me and only the light of my computer’s screen is giving me some artificial clarity. But I don’t complain. It is better this way. It is… Perfect for what I am about to do.
In front of me, in my desk, there are several pills and a bottle of water.
I am about to feel true control for the first time in my life and then…
Then…
It will be the last thing I will ever feel.
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darkseraph,
I’m sorry that you’re in such pain right now, if you want to talk I’m more than willing to listen and reply to the best of my ability.
It sounds like you just want to be able to decide for yourself what to do with your life, but is there anything that you can think of that you would be willing to fight for? Even for just a little longer? Sometimes even in the midst of such darkness, there is that one little hope that won’t flutter away completely, is there anything like that for you? Maybe you’d be willing to wait a while?
If not, I do hope that you find the peace that you are looking for, but a slight warning, ODing on pills is extremely hard and can lead to disastrous organ issues (especially liver) so be please, please make sure you know the affects of what you have in front of you. Otherwise, if things don’t go as planned, you might end up in a worse place than you are not.
Wishing you the best of luck and hoping you feel better.
thats what stops me from doing the pill od i’m thinkinng with my luck i’d be one of the unfortunate ones to survive worse than i already am
Unless those pills are a combination of high dosage Oxycodone and tricyclic antidepressants, and that water is actually hard liquor…then I’ll catch you tomorrow, bro.
Peace out.