I need to get help for my manic depression for once. Always been scared of seeing a doctor but yesterday I finally see its only a short time before I completely become useless. I’m running out of time. I’m a 32yr male.
Please, if you can.. tell me your experience with manic depression, what your doctor told you and treatment and your opinion on the whole experience. Please tell me as much as you can cause I’m so scared to be put away. It’s gotten so bad and starting to literally get out of control.
It has to stop or I’m gonna just kill myself, no one should live like this their whole life
Edit: ok, I’ve looked up manic depression and I see they now categorize it the same as bipolar disorder. I didn’t know that honestly. So yeah anyone with bipolar disorder please give me your opinions on treatment you’ve experienced.
I feel so fucked
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I had seen a therapist for something very different for almost 4 years. Finally, it was so bad, I asked her to refer me to a psychiatrist for assessment and maybe medicine.
The psychiatrist read my therapist’s notes and met with me ONE TIME. After that she came to the conclusion that I was bipolar. I couldn’t believe it. I didn’t ever feel “manic”, to my knowledge, but I certainly felt depression.
She perscribed some medicine. I think it was called seroquel or something. It sucked because I could eat grapefruits of dirnk grapefruit juice. It’s like…my favorite fruit and my favorite juice!
So I took the medicine. It made me sleepy. That’s it. No other mood changes. I still felt depressed.
About a year later I got a new job and moved to a new place. Instantly I felt happier. About a month later I ran out of medicine. I thought about seeing a doctor for some more, but I was feeling so happy that I figured I didn’t need it. For 4 years after that I had no depression. Just happy.
Then last year life got hard and a lot of stuff happened and I went into a depression. Still, I decided my depression was due to my circumstances and that if I can change my circumstances then I’ll fix my depression. Now I’m working to do that.
I’m not saying I don’t think you don’t have bipolar disorder or that it’s purely an environmental thing. This was just my experience.
I still don’t know why the psychiatrist thought I had bipolar disorder. (I had written an paper on Bipolar Disorder in college and really thought she was totally wrong, but I’m not a professional, so I trusted her.)
Thank you for your advice and for sharing.
With all the information available these days I’ve found it very hard to deny anymore that it certainly is bipolar disorder. I’ve been so judgmental against this condition in others it’s very ironic that’s exactly my problem. I’ve experienced all the symptoms my whole life and just thought I was special or unique but now I see that even my highest moments were only a delusion. I’m so afraid of feeling happy cause the result isn’t pretty at all. It’s life threatening. I’m seeking out a support group near me, I’ll start there and work my way up to a therapist’s opinion and then I’ll go for the big leap of that doesn’t help. ….I mean go see a shrink..not leap off a building or anything like that
I’m happy to hear that you’re seeking out support groups and help.
There might even be a free therapy / counseling program in your area.
There are therapists who do volunteer counseling while they are still in school working towards a PhD. My therapist was like this and she was free. Maybe you can find someone like that.
There is usually a waiting list though. I had to be on the list for several months before I could see her, but after that I had weekly appointment.
Good luck. I support you in your search.