I don’t understand why some people are so comfortable in their own skin and others (like me) would give just about anything to climb out of my body and beat it to death with a stick? I mean right now, if I had the most gorgeous and intelligent female on the planet hitting on me or begging me for attention I would cower away because as lonely and touch-starved as I am I creep myself out.
The thing that makes this all so illogical is that when we are comfortable and confident with ourselves we actually attract other people regardless of how imperfect our physical presence is. But even if we are a walking Adonis, our lack of self-acceptance or inability to love ourselves turns others off.
I just wish I could find a way to kick back and rest like this guy. As revolting as he might be to some people I am jealous of his contentment.
I don’t get it.
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Yes, the “I don’t deserve you” self-loathing types are a turn-off.
Hi nozmoking. I don’t ever scroll through the comments page, but sometimes when I do catch your moniker on the *recent comments sidebar* I tend to click on it ’cause I like reading what you’ve got to say..
What the hell is Father Christmas doing on a beach soaking up the sun. Should he be wrapping presents of something.
Brav-o.
Kenny’s Ghost lmao
I like to think I’m deserving but when people don’t treat you like you are then it gets inside of you and it’s hard to feel that confidence. I know it’s unattractive but I’ve been ridiculed and humiliated many times so that plays on my mind quite a lot. I loved my last bf so much I can’t even describe it as words don’t convey what I feel anywhere near well enough. But I felt I was good enough for him when he started dumping me for no good reason, other things happened too and I started just feeling like I’m only good to be mistreated and nothing else…but I’d really like to think I’m worthy and that’s part of the hurt.
I always thought you were a pretty content and relaxed guy, at least your posts sounded like that. I haven’t seen you rage or freak out about something and you always seemed to be calm about everything. Imo you’re pretty close to the ideal of yours already; to be honest I’d actually like some of that self esteem of yours 😉 Usually those who argue the loudest and feel the need to express their self-confidence everywhere truly have the most doubts about themselves, and I don’t exclude myself here.