Criminal record and bad reputation on Google.

When I was in my 20s, I had some problems in business and with the criminal courts so now I have criminal records and a horrible reputation online. I used to have a lot of money so I moved to Asia and found my escape/happiness.

Now I have no money so I moved back to my country to live with my parents while I try to find a job doing something online. I am now in my early 40s, unemployed, getting fat, lonely, cold, losing hope.
It’s been 2 months and I’m getting nowhere and feel very unhappy. I cannot get a job (due to my criminal records) nor make friends/find a girlfriend (due to my bad reputation online) and no money to go out + I’m not used to the extreme cold weather. I am always feeling nervous that new friends will look me up on Google.
My siblings have more money than me so I’ve asked for help this week to get me back to Asia where I’m always happy and never think of ending it all. If they say yes, I’m happy but still unemployed. If they say no, I’m stuck here with no prospects. So I started obsessing with hanging myself as my parents are soon going away for a short holiday.