I deleted my old post because well it was just another cry for help answered by the very reason I despise my life.
Honestly, would any of you converse with other humans if you were in my situation? Everywhere you go there’s people on phones or in person (wherever I go) having fake conversations just to get a reaction or to harass me. Fake conversations. Such as the ones going on in my last post that I deleted. It drains the life of me. It’s so ridiculous. The relationship between me and my family is truly lost forever. I’ve never been closer to telling them all to fuck off forever. I have no friends, because every single one of them are being told what to say to me. IT’S THE FACT THEY’RE BEING TOLD WHAT TO SAY TO ME, NOT THE WORDS THEMSELVES. IT’S SO FUCKING RIDICULOUS. WE’LL NEVER EVER BE ON THE SAME PAGE. This is why I have no life and no future. The only viable way for me to continue is to fucking kill myself or move to another country.
My family is 100% not coming to my wedding. What kind of mother goes behind their sons back and ruins a girlfriend? Same as brother? They’re so fucking stupid. Dad you can’t possibly be on that same page. Drugged up/adderall induced google searches are not something you should be concerned with. THINK ABOUT WHAT’S HAPPENING NOT PAST GOOGLE SEARCHES THAT WERE GLANCED AT FOR 2 SECONDS.
Would you want to live if you had no money, realized you owe somebody 6 figures, have no job, are forced to work a terrible job, have no car, investments went belly up, have a terribly mother and brother that ruin relationships, and everybody assumes your gay when you aren’t?
NO OF COURSE NOT. YOUD WANT TO FUCKING KILL YOURSELF.
oh and your being kicked out cause an old paranoid man (who you’ve shared your respect for with your parents) hates your guts. Oh and your family thinks you’re a rapist.
NO YOUD WANT TO NEVER FUCKING SPEAK TO THOSE PEOPLE AGAIN.
JUST FUCKING KILL ME. JUST FUCKING KILL ME.
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bro….ur good…just gotta get ur shit together…sorry for being so blunt but u have so much going for u JUST from ur post bud…look at urself correctly fuck
i just tried to hang myself for the second time tonight. My heart is beating so fast
here for u man
Hi. I think that your situation is very sad…but it is nothing you can’t change. You can make money, you can get better job, what’s more, you can get a girlfriend who’s perfect for you. Even if you don’t see it now, it is true.
I am a bit sad that you’re thinking that I wanted to hurt you by offering a talk. I guess I’m in the same state of mind you are or even worse. I understand that you don’t want to talk to people, but it’s the best you can do. To talk to kind people who have enough compassion to understand your suffering. Closing inside your inner ego will cause only accumulation of your frustration and pain.
Hugs.
CB, I was once in a rotten place like you are, everything & everyone hitting you all at the same time. Life still sucks hard, but at least the bs is spaced widely enough that I can mostly survive. Anyway I just wanted to tell you how I dealt with it when I hit rock bottom.
You’re about to say “fuck it” to life, right? Fuck it to everything & everyone, that’s what suicide is in a nutshell. That may be the way to go, but before you do that what if you try saying fuck it without killing or hurting yourself?
I literally stuffed a bunch of clothes in a backpack and started walking. Destination: South America (I lived in NY). Why? Because it’s the first place I could think of where everything could be totally different, and I didn’t need to buy a plane ticket.
Surely there’s some place like that for you. I’m guessing you’re in the USA (doesn’t really matter though)… you need to get the hell out of here, for a month, a year, 10 years or whatever it takes. Think about it, what’s the worst that can happen if you just pack up and walk away from your life?
Well lots of bad things can happen, but I guess my point is that they would be “new” bad things, instead of the same torture you wake up to every day.