Friends?

i always wonder how it was to have friend, how is it to have people that cares for you or that would actually give a shit if tomorrow they woke but you didn’t. how is it really, cause all i know is that I’ve always been alone all me life and never really had any affection from someone other then myself, lol funny cause even myself don’t like myself, so i never loved or felt loved, i always wonder how it felt, like does you really think of the person all the time, do you really do things for the good of that person, does just having that person in your life brighten it. i don’t know all the things that i know about love are base on fairy tales and movie and i hate cause we are fed up with lies about happy ending and then we are all disappointed when it doesn’t happen, we are lied to as kid about how they live happily ever after but it’s not true it’s wrong all wrong their’s no happy ending in life, they’e just bunch of good moment you wish could last forever but won’t, they won’t sad truth about reality, everything is a lie, nothing is ever the same, we have expectations but 99% of the time we fail those expectations why because we believe in luck and chances, they’re no luck in life and no chances, yep maybe you tripped and find 100 dollars on the floor but reminber someone left it there by accident it’s no luck just bunch of events that are bind with each other…