Hi…
this is probably gonna be stupid. I doubt anyone wants to hear my problems, but I guess I’ll tell you anyways..
Well. I’m 12, and I have a pretty good life. I have a loving mom , a nice sister , I see my dad regularly , my mom and him never got married . They still keep in touch tho. My life’s just average. We don’t have a lot of money tho. but we’re doing fine. , I also have a very amazing caring bestfriend.<3 , but I don't tell her entirely everything.. I told her that I've cut before. and she told me she has too. We promised to never do it again. But I haven't told her that I did it recently. after 4 months of not cutting , I did it. I didn't mean to. but my depression took over. It creeped in my mind and took a hold of the razor blade. it whispered the horrible thoughts through ny brain , and they leaked out of my skin and dropped out as blood onto my bedroom floor. I haven't got diagnosed with depression , because I haven't saw a therapist.. but I know I have it. And no. I'm not bragging about having depression. because depression is horrible. I feel like I'm suffocating in my body, that I'm just a little soul in a small thin shell. and my soul is a very dark place. have you ever plotted how you could commit suicide.? I have. I tried not to think about it. but my mind wandered over to that place again. its hard to explain why I'm depressed , because I don't know why. I don't even know when this happened. I just woke up one day and just started edging away from the real world. … everything is fading. I'm fading. .. I hate myself . when people compliment me , I can't accept it, because I know they're lying. everyone lies to me. I'm not beautiful. my mind has already convinced me that I'm not. and there's no changing it…
I feel so weak. like I'm such a disappointment . I just . idek. these feelings are unexplanable ..
if someone understands this. will they please atheist try to talk to me.. you don't have to. I don't wanna burden you with my problems…/:
Bye I guess…
– That one suicidal girl ..
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That was meant to say *at least talk to me.*
Oops.
hey friend. the keyword to a good life is faith. if you keep doing the things that you do and saying to your mind these negative things your mind will not resist. it will accept it. the only person responsible for your misery is you. stop look at the world like it has to be a perfect picture like we are all supposed to be perfect. we are not perfect and we will never be. all i want you to do my friend is believe in yourself, in love, in hope, in happiness. get up, look at the mirror and say:” life is a battle and i don’t wanna win i just want to enjoy it” trust me it’s easy to get to a such a dark place but it’s hard to want clarity. get up and stop complaining about things instead aim for changing them
“if you don’t stand for something, you’ll fall for anything”