“No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She’s in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she can’t handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm and wants to give up her life”
When ever I hear this song this is the part when I start to cry…This pretty much perfectly describes my life and I’ve noticed it for years now. I seriously need help but I refuse to tell my parents about my depression, my mom already thinks she fucked up on raising us and I feel like telling her about it will only make her think she was right….and shes not. They did nothing wrong with raising us I would rather hurt every day of my life then have my parents hurt because of me…that’s probably the reason I wouldn’t actually be able to go threw with suicide and just resort to cutting instead.
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Have you tried to talk to a school counselor? Or maybe a free online counselor? As much as you may not want your mom to know and feel bad, the more that you internalize your pain the worse it will get. I was in your position when I was younger, and I didn’t want my parents to know either. I started cutting when I was 11, and it led me on a very dark road, that involved an eating disorder, severe cutting, and substance abuse. Get help while you still can. I ruined my life, and I would hate to see you ruin your’s as well. I truly hope that you can find happiness, and peace.
TheOneNoOneSees,
I understand your hesitation about letting your parents in on your feelings due to concern for them, but I truly feel they would rather know what is going on so they can help you.
I think the key is how you tell them – as long as you make it clear that what you are going through is not their fault, I’m sure your parents will be glad that you trusted them enough to let them in and allow them to help you.
If this is not possible, LeftForTheDead’s suggestions are good ones – perhaps a school counselor (or someone else you can trust) or online help of some kind.
L4Y
Medical & mental health professionals & I would think, school counselors too, are bound by patient confidentiality laws.
In the US anyway.
Give it a try.