I am clumsy oath. I have no feel. I tried to massage my mother. I do not seem to feel anything. What am I good at? What am I doing here?
My ideas get rejected. I cannot even do a simple university assignment. I want to leave my university. My ego wants me to stay even I know really well I am going to kick out.
I like being alone because I feel even more alone with the people around me.
I am tired. I want all this to stop. I just don’t have the guts or energy to end this. THe world has come to a standstill. I want to leave but I am stuck.
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I feel for your situation. Its roughh out there in the world in many ways. You are not clumsy and you are not useless or any of that nonsense. Its just that the world is a hard place to live in right now and you have depression creeping in on you like so many others. Have you tried to see a Psychiatrist? Sometimes they can put you on meds and that heaviness and isolation you feel could go away. and then you might be able to focus on yor school work and have a better perspective on things and a more positive attitude about your future. But try to stay in school if you can. I hope you are majoring in something that will help you find a job in the future.
If you needed to you could cut down to a part time student or enroll in an online type of school where you just do the work on your own at home and go in for testing.
Not telling you what to do just offering some alterntives that you could think about.
trust me I know how you feel and lots of other people do too.
I know many people who graduate college only to find they cant find job in their field… and they wind up upsett about it. and having to pay back heavy loans. Its rough
You can find your place in this world. Try to network with sucessul people and see if they have any advice and or opportunities for you. I have landed some goodjobs in life just buy knowing the right people.
Try to get some couseling.
Neverland,
School can be very stressful, especially if you are dealing with personal struggles. I realize you are sad and frustrated, but I do hope that you are able to continue your education somehow, as it is so important in today’s world. Uptown234’s suggestion of enrolling in an online program is something worth looking into if you feel you cannot remain at your university.
I hope everything works out for you.
L4Y