-she never responded to my texts, but she always called me when she was desperate for attention
-i talked to him one night and i got excited, but he was gone before the sun rose
-we hugged, but it never felt like it was right, it was always jagged and rough around the edges and i knew he wasn’t hugging me because he liked me, he was just doing it so a girl he liked would be jealous. it didn’t work
-we spun around the room laughing, but i knew that under those sparkling eyes she was trying to rip me apart and discover my secrets
-i met him in the winter, but i couldn’t get another word out of him before the snow melted and the green grass started growing as signs of spring
-we laughed together, but it was a facade, we both knew that we were too different
-i tried to let him discover me, but he never wanted to look at someone who wasn’t as beautiful as the girl he loved
-she was the first one that cared about me, but that died down quickly as she slowly lost interest in me. finally she didn’t see me as intriguing anymore
-she got me roses, but our relationship died down before the roses lost their petals and started to wither. our relationship died sooner than a bunch of flowers.
-we talked for a while, but we both knew it felt forced and i tried so god damn hard to keep her as a friend before she dyed her hair again for the new month. she dyed it a while back. we aren’t friends anymore.
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Friendship can be so elusive. I lost a friend recently myself, and my head is still spinning. I don’t know how or why it happened, and I’m still consumed with grief.
I think the best thing we can do is start taking care of ourselves and learning to like ourselves for who we are. I suspect that, when our default attitude is that of wondering what’s wrong with ourselves, people can’t help but pick up on that. Some people might genuinely like us, but they’ll pick up on that vibe and find it off-putting. Others will be attracted to it for the wrong reasons, and they’ll take advantage. Changing our outlook is easier said than done, of course, but I have faith that it’s a worthwhile pursuit.
I’m sorry you’ve been so let down, LetItGo. You deserve supportive friends and fulfilling relationships as much as anyone else.