I don’t know what to do

I was always bullied because of my race. I never done anything about it and I never told anyone because I was afraid. Everyday in school I get racism, pushed and even physical damage.  One day I told my parents but they never done anything about it. It’s like they don’t care or want me to settle it myself. I want to settle it myself but I’m too weak and I always think about how everyone thinks about me. Like how I look or how good am I at sports. I did try to settle it but I became emo at an early age when I really didn’t want to due I just cut myself then I moved and I got even more bullied there. People copy off of me tease me and I just can’t stop it. Plus what adds to that is that my parents keep fighting and my mom keep making decision for me when I’m trying to make her not to. I just don’t know what to do anymore stop the bullying or just let it happen and die. But I have been thinking  life is a journey but a journey to what happiness?  Sorrow? Suffering? Or death