If I truly wanted to kill myself I think I would have done it by now. It has been on my mind for years now, but I just keep lying to myself that things will get better. I am constantly fixing one problem in my life just for another to arise. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I am out of options.
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I know wherre your coming from. My life is pretty pathetic and has been for most of my life.
I somewho keep going. But I wrestle with the idea of ending it. But I do make litte progressive
jumps in my life. So in some way. things are gettting better. But t times I feel like you do. The chnces of me having a real full life like most people my age is slim. but I keep hoping some big brek will come for me and that things will get better.
I wish you well.
I know how you feel. That’s exactly what’s happening to me. But you just have to keep lying to yourself so you can get through it. It makes it easier somehow
I know how you feel, I feel like that too. I’m too scared to kill myself and life is mostly a burden. Caught inbetween.
“…lying to myself that things will get better”.
Hell man — I used to be like that, too. Until one day I stopped lying to myself, and boy am I glad I did that. The truth is always the first casualty, no matter the battle, nor location of the war. Nursing that casualty back to health and kicking their arse outta the MTC and back to the fight is entirely up to you to do.
…and trust me: I know how hard it is to escape the MTC (medical treatment centre), especially after a prolonged period out their in the field. It gets comfy getting waited on by the nurses and having a proper TV and the chance to make your own hot brew — but sooner or later you’ll need to get back to the fight, because no one else is going to fend off the enemy in your last position but YOU!
Well, I think that makes sense, but if not… just remember to RETURN FIRE when rounds are sent your way by that ***** called Life.