I was encouraged by impefertluck to write tonight.

There are so many people hurting and so much pain. Know you can get through your personal struggle and hurts. It can often seem like you can’t. Feelings lie. Maybe that sounds pretentious. Feelings lead us to conclude things we never would have if the feelings hadn’t been so strong.

I have dealt with my depression for over 20 years. I had counseling but no one listened to me when I talked about the pain of my family life so many years before. So, instead of understanding that the depression came from a situation I had no control over, I felt like I was terrible, even a little crazy for feeling so insecure.

Once I asked my grandmother, what if a parent loves their child but it is not enough. I fear my grandmother  thought I was talking about my dad, her son. 🙁

But I was not. I was talking about me. I thought this-

My parents love me but I don’t feel it. WHAT is wrong with me?? Only it wasn’t really words. It was the feeling(s) that I had few words for. The result?

My depression.

Many of us have our fears and problems that give us a false self. We turn on ourselves and lash out the self we can hurt the most, trying to  alleviate the unbearable pain.

When this happens- please remember the image created is not the truth- at least not the whole truth.

The truth is you (every one of you!) are a beautiful soul who deserves all the happiness and support of those around you. YOU can keep going. Work hard for the good of you- as hard as you do for your demise.

Take great care of YOU today!