Despair is repressed, only for a short-while, It cannot be hidden for too long. People start seeing it. It eagerly reveals its existence, like a child wanting to reveal his talents, in a school- play. Just like a play, despair is viewed as “fictitious”; in they’re mind, it’s only in your mind. Some believe it’s the lack of gratitude and love you show towards ’em; some, simply, enjoy your despair, it makes them feel better. In either case, their ego is the window in which, they view your despair. All this happens, as if they’ve never felt sad; as if they suddenly developed a relative form of Amnesia, that only props up when the subject is your despair. They forget their past, refuse to understand your present, and only provide poorly thought-out solutions for your future. Nether-the-less, the persistent lack of understanding is the result of – abandonment. We true-ly have nobody, and it terrifies us that we don’t. People may physical be there, but their never -there for you.
Unlike a play, or movie, our-lives have lonely endings, punctuated by abandonment. We must seek a new ending, one that will the loneliness in all our endings.
“I’m in despair because of the way my-life is, I’m abandoned because there’s no real guidance”
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Wow, you just pulled a scene out of my life.. while I’m in despair I do have a friend that calls.. gives me those poorly thought out solutions.. but yes totally feeds off my despair and makes himself feel good.. cause I already know he talKS about me behind my back to his friends… sigh, this certain friend has been apart of all my major financial and life fuck ups.. friends.. friends fuck up friends lives more then alcohol.. choose your friends wisley. . I didn’t. . I paid the price.