Can relate in part. Usually that emptiness leads me to feel despair, and then despair leads to sadness. And yeah, pretty much my thoughts, life does seem meaningless and boring most of the time.
I’m too einstien-like for that :3
I always ask why…and then i think about enough things to make me sad! xP
I can feel empty -and- sad =o just never empty by itself…
On rare occasion I might think about happy things and feel ‘full’ again, but 99% of the time i just end up being sad after asking myself “why do i feel this way?”…
Here’s the “empty story” I learned..take it or leave it. Empty is not such a bad thing sometimes. anyway:
A student comes in to see the great teacher. He sits down at the table to drink tea with the teacher. He begins asking many many questions. What’s the meaning of life? Why am I hear? How come I’m bored? Why is society like this and makes me feel small and useless? I think I feel this way because…blah blah..and on and on.
The teacher pours the student tea and keeps pouring as the tea runs over the cup and all over the table. The student jumps up, “hey, what are you doing?”
Teacher says, “Your cup is already so full there’s no room for anything. Learn to empty your cup so you can learn new ways.”
So, maybe empty is ok? Roll with it.
I know what you mean about feeling empty. It seems like lately that’s replaced any active feelings of despair and desperation that used to be what made me think about suicide, but now I feel closer to actually doing it then I did before. I just kind of go about my distractions and have fun doing them, but once I stop then that feeling of nothingness just kind of comes back and I wonder why I bother.
It’s kind of like an in-the-eye-of-the-storm feeling, and I know that eventually the other stronger negative feelings will come back… I find myself kind of wishing that they will because I don’t know if the emptiness alone is a strong enough motivator for me to actually just put the gun in my mouth already.
So feeling a bit better with the emptiness, enough to plan to die, but now just waiting to feel bad enough so I can actually force myself to go through with it. Wow, that sounds like a pretty fucked up line of reasoning now that I actually examine it.
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Can relate in part. Usually that emptiness leads me to feel despair, and then despair leads to sadness. And yeah, pretty much my thoughts, life does seem meaningless and boring most of the time.
Glad that you agree!
Nope!
I’m too einstien-like for that :3
I always ask why…and then i think about enough things to make me sad! xP
I can feel empty -and- sad =o just never empty by itself…
On rare occasion I might think about happy things and feel ‘full’ again, but 99% of the time i just end up being sad after asking myself “why do i feel this way?”…
Hang in there! Maybe try to think another way, like positive thoughts instead?
Here’s the “empty story” I learned..take it or leave it. Empty is not such a bad thing sometimes. anyway:
A student comes in to see the great teacher. He sits down at the table to drink tea with the teacher. He begins asking many many questions. What’s the meaning of life? Why am I hear? How come I’m bored? Why is society like this and makes me feel small and useless? I think I feel this way because…blah blah..and on and on.
The teacher pours the student tea and keeps pouring as the tea runs over the cup and all over the table. The student jumps up, “hey, what are you doing?”
Teacher says, “Your cup is already so full there’s no room for anything. Learn to empty your cup so you can learn new ways.”
So, maybe empty is ok? Roll with it.
Thanks for the story.. although is not quite the same with feelings but
Yeah it is
I know what you mean about feeling empty. It seems like lately that’s replaced any active feelings of despair and desperation that used to be what made me think about suicide, but now I feel closer to actually doing it then I did before. I just kind of go about my distractions and have fun doing them, but once I stop then that feeling of nothingness just kind of comes back and I wonder why I bother.
It’s kind of like an in-the-eye-of-the-storm feeling, and I know that eventually the other stronger negative feelings will come back… I find myself kind of wishing that they will because I don’t know if the emptiness alone is a strong enough motivator for me to actually just put the gun in my mouth already.
So feeling a bit better with the emptiness, enough to plan to die, but now just waiting to feel bad enough so I can actually force myself to go through with it. Wow, that sounds like a pretty fucked up line of reasoning now that I actually examine it.
Sorry to hear. Hang in there. Stay strong. Hugs