I made an account last night…Im not really sure what say.
I’ve been battling chronic depression since I was 14 I’m 24 now. I attempted suicide my first time when I was 18, and again at age 23. I was given one glorious opportunity at peace about 8 months ago, leaving this world with someone, someone that took all the pain way. I can’t go more then two days without wishing I would have just said yes.
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I’m am glad you did not take that chance. I can understand why, really. I’ve felt I wanted to escape. I wanted to be over. Sometimes I still feel that way. But dying like this? A person sinks so low and upset at the world, they want to leave… but it is like revenge on yourself. The world doesn’t suffer (well, that is not true, other people do), but you do.
Hold on. Find the world you need.
It’s hard not to keep thinking about suicide when fighting severe depression, it can seem like a way out, you must keep fighting. You’ve just joined SP, say whatever you need to say, the site is for you just to get out all that’s troubling you, all your demons, there’s people here who’ll listen, people who know how it feels to be suicidal.
sorry to hear that im here to hear you if you ever want to talk
Opportunities come and go. Sometimes you have to make the opportunity happen, though. Hope life gets better for you. It probably won’t, but who knows.
Hi CosmicWind. I’ve been in similar shoes. A few years ago, those storm clouds were unrelenting. I was tired of fighting. Things didn’t change overnight. Not every day is a good day. At the same time, things can get better. It will take time and effort. No doubt. The end result can be some light. Don’t fight alone. Talk to us. Use local resources if you can. People care.