i’ve had many things taken from me throughout my life…
mother/father: robbed me of safety, acceptance, and unconditional love, i never stood a chance with the two of you
molester: robbed me of a childhood, feelings of worth and value
rapists: robbed me of dignity and pride
myself: robbed me of peace and tranquility
but you… nothing compares to what you have done… you stripped me bare, consumed me body and soul only to regurgitate it back in my face with a look of disgust only to say– not what i want… you leave me crumbled, a pile of used discarded remnants of something that was at some point possibly human and don’t look back- i, lost in anguish, volatile, hearing sounds coming out of me that i never knew myself to possess… sounds of an animal- whaling- wounded, alone, hurt, dying… you don’t flinch. no hand offered in comfort, no kind word in reassurance-
the most humiliating part, is that, unlike the rest of my offenders, you did not take from me.
how can you take what was already yours. i gave it to you- i gave it all to you
disposed of yet again… barely dusted myself off from the last time and here i find my face in dirt… i’ll get up- slowly, on my own, i’ll find a way on my feet- why? for what possible reason?
I refuse to die while you are still on this earth grinning- walking around as if ‘business as usual’- i need to see you in pain, not by my hand, i have no affect on you… so ladies… girls… if you see a guy resembling Lucifer, the antichrist, the goddamn fucking devil,,, horns and all— please please please do me the justice of so ever slowly RIPPING THAT MOTHERFUCKERS BLACK LIFELESS HEART OUT!!! (oh, and if you could txt me a pic while he begs you to stop, that would be awesome)
i will be forever grateful and alas at peace to surrender-
thanks!!
(this rant is not meant as a man hater– only hate 1 man- got no bones with the rest of you fellas)
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I thought the devil looked like Robert De Niro or Adam Sandler.
Nah, but honestly, i don’t think i qualify as a sister (lol), but just wanted to say that i’m sorry you’ve had to endure so much. You seem like a good, caring person so i guess that’s the culprit (good people seem to suffer more). I can only say it was his loss, and sadly there’s more of that kind than i’d like (they give decent men a bad rep), but at least you got rid of someone who wasn’t worth it. It’s hard to really accept it, but at times it’s best for things to end before you are so deep into it that you just end up enduring a bad situation forever. If there’s a public execution one day i’ll bring the pitchforks.
Mf- PLEASE tell your ladies to keep their brothers on a leash!!
(didn’t Brad Pitt play the devil?)
That’s funny, because the last week i’ve had a freaking parade of people from my past (including every girl i could have dated instead of my last two exgfs, i used my dash abilities like crazy!) but no exes. If i do find one i’ll make sure to tell her (and give her a proverbial slap as well, always wondered if it’s more polite than a regular slap).
And nope, Brad Pitt played death on Meet Joe Black, but one could argue that it’s close enough. In theory he did kill people.
a song?? YAY!! it has been a shit fucking day ( for you too, i see)
Fuck all this shit-
shh… gonna try n sneak this one in…shh {{{{{we could be like thelma n Louise- but instead Thelma n Luis or Theodore n Louise}}}}} maybe admin won’t notice :/