I have been in a lot of abusive relationships, and until now, I’ve always been able to fight my way to freedom.
But now…
I’ve developed Conversion Aphonia… meaning, because of the trauma I’ve suffered, the emotional, physical and sexual abuse, my voice… will no longer be there…
I can’t speak. I can’t laugh. I can’t even try. No matter how much I try, my body will not let me make a sound.
What am I supposed to do now?
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Slowly try to build up a foundation to be able to speak again. The condition you cite is treatable at short term so you should be able to speak again. I know it’s not even similar but i had dysfunctional dysphonia for most of my life (you go almost mute under stress situations) and even if i held it at bay eventually i lost my voice almost completely (and permanently, the funniest thing is i studied singing for years) due to an unknown condition.
I know it’s not easy to have speech impediments or lose your voice all together, but in your case it is a trauma and therapy and vocal re-education might do the trick over time (and not such a long time… might be less than a couple of months)… just don’t let it control your life (i did and i lost everything i cared for). I really hope you’ll be able to overcome this and gain your voice back, best of luck.