And again I’m crying like a child.
My mother and my sister both asked for my help at the same time. I can’t be in two places. They don’t seem to understand.
I left my only hobby, the only moment of the week when I see people and do something I like, because every week I had to pick up my sister from the train at that hour. Just too tired to argue with her.
I study in a online university, just to have time to work and pay for my degree. But I have to work in my mother’s shop for free so we don’t have to close it. So I wont be able to pay this semester, and I’ll have to quit.
I don’t have a life, I just spend my time doing things for the others. They don’t seem to realize.
I’m tired, I can’t stop crying, and I see no escape.
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Life can be very overwhelming and crying is a natural response when feeling under pressure.
I bet your mum really appreciates your help, I’m sure she’s aware that without you, the shop will fail. I bet if you told your sister to walk home or get a bus cause you’re busy studying, then next time you pick her up she’ll be a lot more grateful.
Have a chat with your mum. Tell her about uni and how you may have to pull out. That’s not really fair and its such a shame and a trigger for depression alone, I’ve been there.
Are you in Australia? Are you entitled to HECS or a scholarship?
Crying can be a good thing, a good release. The pressure your mother and sister are putting on you is not, and I will respectfully disagree with the suggestion that your mother is grateful for your help. Either she is fully aware of the pressure you are under, or you are hella good at acting. Is there anyone you can reach out to, let them know what’s happening? You deserve your own life.
You could be right, but I think the whole family is under a lot of pressure and are all coping the best they can. You don’t know the mum to comment, I suggested that she’s grateful but under strain and can’t express that.
The sister needs to grow some independence and find her own way around, I’m sure there are plenty of buses and she needs to communicate with mum and explain how she feels. When someone is desperate to keep something alive and avoid failure, they unfortunately forget about the ones dear to them and expect help instead of request it or appreciate it.
Or I could be wrong, she may be using the daughter, but I don’t think slamming the mum is very helpful. I think her sister should grow up some.
We don’t know the whole story, but hopefully she will tell her mum what she may be losing by spending her time at her shop and the mum can find other help or some kind of solution.
Luke Skywalker didn’t want to work his uncles farm, but he felt obliged. He wanted to join the alliance like all his friends. He did the right thing and helped his family. When a droid escaped and they went after him, his uncle and aunt were killed and the farm destroyed. Something to ponder there.