This world has overcome me on a whole new level. This emptiness I feel just won’t leave.. It’s useless I really don’t know why I try. I should just lay here and slowly waste away. People ask if you could sit down for hours or days and think about where your life will be in 5 years or 10 years or maybe even just 2 months from now I’ll never have an answer. I can not see myself anywhere new unless it leads to death.. It’s the only way I feel I’ll find some sort of peace. The only way I’ll ever feel like I’ve finally done something “right.” I never fail to disappoint people. Every time I seem to catch a mild glimpse of hope something comes along and crushes it into pieces that are like dust.. Nothing left to put together. Where do I go from here?… My mind feels like a hurricane off shore collecting more and more strength to where eventually I self destruct and leave nothing but devastation to all who knew me or would become to know me.
I AM NOTHING !!