hi

so I’m here to try and tell my story because someone said I should try… Well I not to sure where to start but all I know is that everyday is a challenge for me every since I was 9. Is it normal for a child to feel so much hurt and despair? Well I’m sure some might say no because its not normal because there must be something going on. I grew into my teens feeling the same I have thought so many times that I should end it maybe that will make things better. I don’t want not at all but its crossed my mind so many times. I want to live I want to be happy and I want to move on but I’m haunted by my past because it lingers. Shame, regret, hate, pain…is just some of what’s hidden in my very soul deep in my heart. Why I ask myself everyday! I know why but I want to forget even if I’m told its impossible to do. I guess I’ll leave it as this for now before I go into word vomit.