basically my life is hopeless no matter any situation, I’m always the one in the back corner by myself. I don’t want to live, I’ve been on and off suicidal for 2 years now, not one person in my family knows I am suicidal, and that I tied a noose and put it around my neck ready to jump one night. No one knows. Even in this moment I type, I want to stab myself in the throat every waking moment.
I just wanted to tell someone finally. Get it out after so long.
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Scream it to the sky mate. We all get it.
Hey, redfox24. It’s nice to meet you..on the internet. What makes you think it’s hopeless? Are you tired of feeling lonely, left alone? I’m sorry if that’s the case. Being lonely sucks. It’s not the best feeling. It’s actually one of the worst. When there is no one you can talk to, ask for advice or help. People don’t realize there’s something wrong until it’s too late. Why can’t you talk about it with your family? Give it a try. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. As you can see, you’re not invisible to me or whoever adds a comment here. I hope you’re feeling better.
I hear ya. Its how a lot of us feel and/or have done.
I no exactly how you feel friend. Life seems like nothing but dead ends know matter which road I choose. Nothing I do is good enough for anybodys standards. The family I have left and my wife… Only think its like nothing…when they look at me tears rolling they know I’m suicidal they know the only reason I hesitate is because of the guilt I would leave them with. You are not alone my friend. I know what you are feeling. And the people of this site can say they have felt this and know exactly what you mean. To be honest. Until I self harm. I have a knot inside of my chest screaming for me to indulge and I hold back as long as I can. But it doesn’t last. The relief is there…but still I walk. In numbbed .
We all cry for help. We all try so hard to be so good for everyone around us. My life is lived on BC I don’t want to leave them with the guilt of them being so blind and not seeing. Screwy isn’t ..you are not alone.
Thank you all, for your comments I like reading them. Calms me down almost like I’m not the only one who doesn’t know what to do, when my pain threshold is beyond barable to the extent of self harm. I just want a restart so I won’t have to hurt everyone around me when I finally blow