I believe I have served my purpose. Natural death is just that, natural. It would be romantic if we died after having served our purpose so we could go peacefully knowing the suffering will end. However, because death can happen at anytime we could serve our purpose and suffer worthlessly for years only to die unhappy and confused. Some people are destined to be great and lead wonderful successful lives, not all of us are that privileged.
After having been medically discharged from the military just short of completing basic training due to an eye disease I cant control I no longer have anything to push for. The military was always my driving force however now that I’m out in the civilian world I realize that I don’t have anything to live for. I don’t have any special skills or talents or anything that sets me apart for success. I’m simply waking up and going back to sleep. A miscopied sheet if you will. It is a pain to continue to live this life.
Although I don’t yet know how I want to go or even when, but I long for the day in which I slip to that magical world of mysterious dreams we all fear.
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Did you want to study in the army or was it for another reason like combat. You could possibly think of a trade like engineering or automotive