I feel I just can’t go on anymore. The pain controls everything. I have no friends no family nobody to talk to nobody to open up to. I hoping maybe someone can talk me out of this I don’t want to do it but I see no other option I plan out everyday how I going to do it and where but I don’t want nobody to see it or find me it always ends up with someone finding me I just want to disappear. I’ve already tryed pills but that only landed me in the hospital looking like an idiot not a single person bothered to phone or even come to see me. That when I finally realised that no one does care I’m just a waste of space. I know there’s other people with worse problems than me. Maybe I’m just one of they people that are going to alone forever. The true is I want someone to love I want someone to be there for me just once. its all I ask 🙁 I’m not sure why I’m writing this hear maybe I’m hoping someone can talk me out it.
Sorry about the spelling and grammar I’m dyslexic I know most of it makes no sense sorry
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You know at least most of us here care about you because we all consider this shit most days and have gotten in the pretty rough patches.
That sucks no one came to the hospital to see you when you tried OD on pills and I wish I could match make and set you up with the right person like cupid. But I’m pretty powerless and stupid myself. Hang in there stay strong
There maybe not people in worse situations but just different situations I’m schizophrenic and the voices are so tough on me I still wonder what I’m doing here. But then I try to gather strength from heapsa people here and try to see the tough days from the really bad days and hope and prey I come up with solutions and fight it out. But seeing that other people have survived maybe even tougher life changing shit than me is nice to know. Its just a different reason but a similar flight fight response which can be so tough on us. But tough it out and maybe you’ll find a reason to live on
I agree. You shouldn’t judge yourself against someone else’s situation either. Everyone’s different and the troubles that someone else finds overwhelming you may find to be no biggie at all and things that seem big to you aren’t to someone else. All you can do is try your best to come to terms with your troubles and fears, and learn to get over them or live with them. You may see yourself as a weakling and a loser compared to other people, but every day you choose to live, you prove this isn’t the case.
You surely aren’t alone in how you feel.