I find it so difficult to exist, to be.
Am I the only one that feels existence is horrible? That to exist is too much. That the possibility of being trapped in eternity existing is so overwhelming that I can’t breath.
I can’t run away from existence, I am even petrified that when I kill myself I will still be trapped in existence. One is so powerless and out of control. Just trapped for all eternity if eternity exists. Unable to get away from being. Unable to not be. I wish it could all stop. I can stop. Just an end. Nothing more, nothing less. Just stop
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No friend, you’re not the only one. I’m sure knowing that there’s somebody else struggling with the same thoughts as you brings no consolation whatsoever. But you asked so it’d be rude of me not to answer.
Eternity is a mind boggling concept but I won’t pretend I’m not at least a little bit curious about where we fit into that endless story.
I’m glad we had this chat queer <3
Thanks for responding.
at times it drives me to a point where I feel so hopeless and helpless.
one can’t do anything to stop it. Even suicide might not even stop existence.
to be is for me unbearable.
Yes. Wretched, powerless, trapped, without any assurance of cleansing.