Mastery is the term they use for acquired skills that are rewarding in my group therapy. I am 26 years old and have literally acquired zero skills. Getting into something and really learning it requires a inspired or motivated person. The thing is, no goals really motivate me, and I am unable to find the inspiration within myself to accomplish anything.
I explore things I might like to learn, and then I attempt to immurse myself in the content of the subject, and I quickly find myself overwhelmed. The overwhelming nature of the entire situation just discourages me. Maybe I don’t have the confidence in myself to believe I can actually learn the subjects, or maybe I just don’t see an end result. I can’t find joy in putting forth the effort because the rewards I get for putting in the time are so far in the future. Is this depression? Is this a lack of confidence? Am I simply defective, and lack the evolutionary drive to survive?
How is a person supposed to gain mastery in any subject if their personality doesn’t contain the elements that equate to a drive? Do I need to experience more pain in order to really push myself to learn a skill?