I dunno why I was even born cause I have no purpose on this world. I used to think life could get better for people who are unhappy but for me it doesn’t work like that. I wrecked the one good thing I have ever had in my whole life and now I’ve lost them for good they want nothing to do with me anymore cause I let him down so many times. I feel like I have no one now because I only spoke to him about everything everyday I’d talk to him and now he’s not wanting me in his life anymore 🙁 whilst I’ve been writing this ive been crying and everyone seems to think I’m fine and I’m not :‘( I’m not okay I recently took 18 tablets and no one knew about it… I go upstairs everyday earlier and earlier and no one questions it and now I cant even do that because soon I wont have a home I’m being kicked out on the 19th of May and the sad thing is the 19th would of been 1 year I was with him :‘( everywhere I go people hate me and want me dead so I might aswell make everyone happy … im physically done.. I’m drained, I cant go on anymore knowing th one person I care about wants nothing to do with me. Since the age of 9 til 15 all I thought about was death and then he came in my life and stopped the thoughts and even though we had bad times we got through it.. I was pregnant and I miscarried :‘( that hurt the most knowing someone inside you is gone forever.. I started cutting recently and it is getting deeper and deeper.. I am numb I could die right now and now one would care literally have no one now.. some people would be sad but then they would forget me in a week :‘(
I am sorry to everyone I let down especially to Stef :‘( I hope you find happiness and are smiling again I know I didn’t do that for you I know I let you down I will always care about you and I will always love you always forever and a day I know you probably wont see this but it’s too late for sorries I know it dont make it okay and its just a word I know but everyday without you is hard and I cant go on :‘( I’m sorry dont feel sad cause ill be nothing now
25th of May I wanted to see you but guess I cant now so this will be the day
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Your post made me cry. It really touched me. I also lost the only thing in my life that mattered to me. Now my ex-fiancée and her kids have abandoned and erased me completely. And they are never coming back to me. So I’m done with life.
I understand exactly how you feel. I wish there was something I could do for you. But nothing I say will bring him back to you. Life is unfair. The ones that care are the ones that get punished.
“The ones that care are the ones that get punished.” That couldn’t be more true.
AGREE . HE LEFT ME.. THINKS IM A CRAZY PERSON NOW. HATES ME, FUCK LIFE
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Hey sister, You are not alone. I won’t forget you.
Don’t let life get you down, there’s always some lad carrying for you out there.
Thank you everyone for the comments I appreciate it