28 days left
I found someone one a dating site last night who had many similar interests. We talked all night and then some today. I felt happy for the first time in a while. She started flirting with me and I honestly couldn’t believe it. We agreed to meet up next week to go hiking. Of course my fucked up mind instantly fell in love which never ends well. Turns out she likes some other person. Not sure why she’s on a dating site if she isn’t looking for someone. Maybe she just lied about liking someone after seeing my picture. Can’t blame her, I’m not much of a looker. Well the countdown continues. You know I kinda hope I don’t find anyone. Death is sounding better every second.
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Why are you determining whether you live or die on someone else and not yourself?
I have no friends, I feel so hollow and alone. so I set a goal for my self, 30 Days to Meet at least one person I can call a friend or start a relationship with. If I can do that within a month I’m ending it.
We’ll, give yourself a little more time. Friends are easy to come by but the time it takes to acquire good ones is what you want but if you cut your journey short then you won’t find the person that makes your road a little bit brighter… And we’ve all got more than enough time.
So many of you are so young. I’m old enough to be a granny too most of you. I feel rather strange posting this because of the age differences.
So, if you are still reading this. I hope you understand, I’m not here to help you. I can tell you happiness is a choice.
So fuck you dumb little shits. I have lost everything. My family is dead. No one to grieve over me. My Mom, brother, sons, husband. All gone. I have no life, no visitors. Not one phone call from anyone in 6 months. Disabled, not working. I’m done.