I just got from Spring break. I enjoyed it since I love travelling and being with my family. And for one week, I thought – “Well, I guess I wasn’t really as depressed as I thought I was.” FOR. ONE.WEEK. And now it’s back again. Depression can be really tricky. It consists of everything thats happening in your life. It could be about your school, your friend, your family, the amount of your work. And anything could trigger your breakdowns like, your hair being on the way when the wind blows, when you miss the bus, when the water is too cold and it takes a long time to get warm, etc. you get the idea right? Depression hits you sooo bad. You just don’t know WHY. I mean, you know why. But you just don’t know what’s the specific reason. Or maybe, there’s none. or maybe because it’s just… everything.
But it’s tiring right? disappointing? Thinking it’s gone, but it’s not. Tired of being sad. Tired of pushing yourself from your friends and from the people around you. It’s tiring… and I’m fucking exhausted.
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hmm yeah its feels very disappointing and tiring. i also feels tired of being sad.
That’s exactly howI feel. Some times it’s just as you said “just fucking exhausted”
Depression can’t fully go away unless it’s possible to get to the root of the problem and somehow fix it. That’s easier said than done. Many times there are so many issues, you just can’t fix them all. Sometimes there are problems with impossible solutions. So then you’re stuck with depression. For some it comes and it goes and comes back again. For me it just never goes away. Always like a black cloud over my head. Yes, it is exhausting.